Given that this is primarily a running blog, you probably expect me to boast about PRs, new races, maybe a new race distance, or other running feats. Although I have run 5 half marathons, 2 10Ks, and 2 5Ks…..and that never-to-be-repeated duathlon…this past year, that's not what sticks out in my mind as I look back.
But none of that is my focus in this post. Rather, what sticks out in my mind is the process of learning to know my body and my limits, to fight when it feels as if I have nothing to give, and to accept what life throws at you. It may sound simple, but those weren't all easy things for me. This past year marked the 3rd year in our effort to start a family and get pregnant and it entailed lots of doctor visits, several IUIs, many prescriptions for hormone drugs, undesirable side effects, and 2 IVF cycles. It also included learning that Brian and I will never be able to have biological children.
This is a difficult post to write and I'm struggling a bit as I attempt it. It's tempting to share way more than you probably want to read or for me to digress into semi-related tangents. If you've read this blog for awhile, you have likely noticed that I don't talk about the struggle to get pregnant as much as I did when I first opened up about it and I even took down the page that told the whole story and had links to all of the related posts. That's because, when I first opened up about it, I thought I would have good news to share in the end and that I would get pregnant, even though we had some problems and it was taking longer than we planned. As time went on, the reality that it might not end the way we hoped became more apparent.
So here we are…at the start of a new journey. We are moving on and are in the beginning stages of adoption! It's scary, it's exciting, there are lots of questions, and there's a lot to learn…but we are looking forward to what the future holds and I know we'll be parents one day soon :)
What sticks out in your mind when you look back on 2012?
Any big NYE plans for anyone?